Friends, I know that I sound like a broken record but I am finally done with my Masters Program and therefore I am back! I’ve honestly been thinking about “my comeback title” and I think that “Life After A Crazy Yes” perfectly sums it up.
If you attend church or know The Word, you’ve probably heard about the story of Noah. While thinking of this story, you can’t help but imagine the enormous amount of faith that led to a crazy yes in this story…well multiple yeses! Noah surely was rewarded for his obedience. I also was reminded of our reason for being. In that moment, Noah could care less about his own plan, instead he knew that he was created by God for His purpose. He knew that whatever direction he was being pulled in had a greater purpose that will exude God’s glory…god’s love in action.
When I left the corporate fashion world to pursue teaching, people gave me crazy side eyes. Basically, “How dare you leave corporate to work in education?”
Nonetheless, late in July 2017 I left my last corporate 9-5 in fashion. As you can imagine, it was scary, but this faith-based decision felt so right to me. With obedience came new responsibilities of course. I had to learn “education lingo”, get used to a new work environment, a new commute and the biggest commitment of all- go back to school. Truthfully after 5 years in college, that was the last thing I wanted to do.
It was hard, but I did it anyway. I first started as an Apprentice Teacher. Girl, I started off wiping tables and subbing for absent teachers. Honestly, when I got the rag out each morning after the kids ate breakfast…let’s just say it humbled me. Three months later I was asked to become a Special Education Teacher. Once again, I felt peace and proceeded. I was thrown in basically mid-year so I had to re-establish classroom expectations and learn the curriculum. Keep in mind, this is all going on while pursuing my Masters Degree.
Throughout it all I felt disconnected and I struggled to keep a work-life balance. Things were being stripped away (or it sure felt like it). Relationships were not as close, I didn’t have much time to create and I just felt like I was shrunk daily. Managing family and relationship life felt like another burden when it should be an exercise of love. I even questioned God because I felt that this decision was so right, but it changed everything, and I felt alone in the adaptation process.
Being finished, I know that God was ever so near. Everything got done, even when I felt like I was limping to the finish line. Although things were taken away from me and I didn’t sense his presence, he was so near. I assume that rest was apart of his assignment ( my “favorite” thing to do…rest lol). I felt the pressure to keep up with everything and I was fighting to hold on to my “creative life”. Looking back on it, God provided many opportunities- I was able to film with Wander Beauty, got on my very first PR list and was still invited to events although I felt like I was doing absolutely nothing. I also was able to put on my GodGirlsBrunch events as well. All of this is evidence of God’s grace.
With that being said, I can’t wait to start blogging again. I believe that this is apart of my calling. Thank you guys for joining me in this journey. God is forever pulling me in different ways and I am always growing. All apart of life, right?
8-9 “I travel East looking for him—I find no one;
then West, but not a trace;
I go North, but he’s hidden his tracks;
then South, but not even a glimpse.
10-12 “But he knows where I am and what I’ve done.JOB 23:8-12
Keep fighting daily.